written Fri Mar 5, 2010, 10:46 PM
Sooo, the life feels good feeling lasted hmm a few days, maybe even a week haha, then It got kinda nuetral, now I'm down, for no particular reason. But thats normal, for me anyhow.. I assume for everyone? Hmm..
Well I'm very busy at present, classes are challenging and a 5 year old child is challenging and some friends are challenging also (this is not directed at anyone in particular so no one go taking it personally).. and to top it all off my mother has been (kindly) sending people who need assistance with computer related things my way in the hopes that I can earn some money which is very good of her, and great in theory, but it means I have to actually decide how much my time is worth... Which is easy if you've got an employer paying you a standard wage, you look at your bank statements..
Its a bit harder however when you have to come up with it yourself and you have a fairly rotten sense of self-worth hahaha...
This also means I have less free time.
So I STILL havn't done much in the way of artistic type stuff..
But I feel like I'm between things in that area anyway, if y'all know what I mean.. Like my style has changed but I havn't quite figured out how to use the new version.. Does that make any sense at all? I wish it would hurry up and come back anyways, I hate feeling inspired but being unable to express it, it confuses me. Perhaps thats what is making me feel a tad on the depressed side?
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