I've been writing something resembling a letter to my ex, which I am still debating whether to show her or not.
It basically explains the way I feel about our relationship, and the way I feel about her now.. Explaining the impossibility of me being able to trust her at the moment (if ever). The extent of the effect she's had on me, regardless of her claims to be different, sorry and all that jazz, now.
I'm not sure if I'll post it here or not. Because I don't know if she checks on this blog, and I don't know which people in the grapevine which I may not entirely trust check on it.
I am going to talk to her alone tomorrow. Will be interesting to see how that goes. I wonder how much I'll shake *rolls eyes*.
I do not plan on making any agreements or decisions at this meeting.
I need to get my emotional trauma under control so I can make decisions with a clear rational mind, instead of one full of anger & fear, or submissiveness.
