Intuition

Do you ever feel anxious/apprehensive for no apparent reason, then something crappy happens?
This happened to me today.
I was puzzling over the distinct anxious feeling I was experiencing all day.. Kinda shaky, apprehensive, fatigued, jumpy.. Almost angry or aggressive.. I ran my mind over the events of the day and could find no trigger, no reason, no event or sight or sound that may have caused it..
Distracted me when I was trying to concentrate, made me feel like I should watch my back, affected everything I did, as anxiety does.. Felt nervous handing assignments in and talking to people, and driving.. Nothing I read sunk in...
It was most irritating.
Especially when I'm not a naturally anxious person. I generally have a reason to be anxious, its not my normal state of being like it is for some people.
Sometimes its because I'm in a situation outside of my comfort zone, sometimes its because of the actions of another, and sometimes its because I'm worrying about the repercussions of something I've done either unintentionally, or because I felt it needed to be done and bit the damn bullet.
I recall thinking at some point.. Well if nothing has happened to cause me to feel this way, perhaps its intuition.
Funnily enough, the thoughts that then wandered viciously through my mind were about the very person who turned up unannounced at my door that afternoon, sending me on a roller coaster of crappy feelings.
Considering that I was under the impression that this person was on another continent halfway around the world, across a big fucking ocean and wasn't expected back for another couple of months, this was quite a shock.

I was torn between anger, shock, anger, apprehension, anger, hate, anger, concern, anger, confusion, anger, fear, anger and anger. I may have missed a few feelings there but really, its hard to recognise any feeling over anger. Its so overwhelming.

I wish I could turn off my emotions, and deal with such situations without them. It'd be rather handy. Sometimes I can be so despicably rational people seem to forget I have emotions but unfortunately, a combination of past trauma and maternal protectiveness makes for a rather instinctive and powerful emotional response.
And confusion makes it even worse, confusion makes me want to run away from the problem instead of tackling it head on like I need to do.

I just wish life could have remained simple.
I don't want much really... To raise my child without interference, feel safe and secure in my home, pursue my interests and my career- in order to have enough money to live comfortably but not necessarily luxuriously, to be able to support my child, and provide for her without spoiling her, raise her to be a caring, responsible and independent adult... Give her the best start I can and make a life for us that I can enjoy and be proud of.
It is enough hard work to get all that running smoothly without the complications that are arising now.
Isn't it enough to worry about influences at school and on TV without having to worry about interference by someone I don't even want in my life? Someone I don't believe is a good influence or role model? Someone who proved by their very action today, regardless of the words that were spoken, that while some aspects of them may have changed, the manipulation and sneakiness are still there?

My intuition has apparently shown itself to be in working order. Question is can I get my contrary mind to follow along with it?
Can I be strong enough to face the conflict and win?
Will I compromise?
I know I am stronger than I once was. So I guess time will tell.