My confidence that they will work out, that their meeting will be a success, is waning. Well, it sometimes receives a boost and I think they will be ok, but overall, there is a lot of doubt.
Obviously this comes from what she tells me, how she is feeling, about her and me. She has a lot of disputing feelings within her, because she kinda wants both of us now.
In some ways, a friends interference has caused this problem. Because it forced her in a way, to talk to me, about why she stopped loving me before... Forced her to stop bottling up that hurt, that fear. Forced her to listen to my responses and understand some things about both of us and why certain things happened, and maybe forgive me and let go of that hurt she was holding onto.
In doing so, she once again seems to have feelings for me.
She sees me not as a person who has hurt her, but the person she loved before she felt hurt. But this all happened too late for her to be able to end things with the other woman without meeting her 'to see'.
But I don't believe she loves me like she thinks she does. I believe she wants to, that she has convinced herself that she does, because she wants my support, and wants life to be simple, and staying with me would be simpler than going with her.
Also, (the other womans) mood swings, jealousy, insecurity, fear, have been causing them to fight a lot.
The combination of her being so unsure about (the other woman), and her now having these feelings about me, may affect their meeting. She says she might not be able to 'do anything' with her because of her feelings for me. Before, it probably wasn't true, wasn't a real issue, but I worry now that it might be.
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