I met her...

I met her yesterday, they had the kid for a couple of hours and were having a coffee when I met them to take her... She looked quite apprehensive as I walked up I'm not sure what she expected...
I said hi, she said hi back... Then sat there looking like she would to dissapear into the seat... I chatted to my ex for a bit... Then said "long flight eh?" "Yes, very long" she replied, continuing to look like she would like very much to become invisible.
Obviously no point in this, I thought, so after a little more chatter, I said "I'll leave yas to it then" and wandered off with our daughter, to meet a friend.
I found the whole thing quite amusing... I actually felt a little sorry for her, she was so awkward. I was quite pleased however to discover that she's quite ugly.. Well, in my opinion at least, although I've heard I'm not the only one who thinks she's nothing special...

I'm now going through the process of talking to some of our mutual friends, the ones that I have always liked and considered friends of my own as well as hers, establishing a relationship with people I've never spoken to alone before... Its extremely relieving to find that they consider me a friend also, and would like to get to know me better as a person, not just a partner of a friend.
Its nice to be able to talk about the things that she never liked me talking about.. My past before I met her, my writing, my drawing...
And of course, while its probably not the nicest thing to do (although the less rational more emotional side of me says well fuck it, she deserves no better), its nice to be able to be open with people who know her, about what our relationship was really like... The things no one ever saw, or saw but didn't understand.
I don't want to turn her friends against her, I'm not like that... But what she did to me, they don't agree with anyway, and I need to talk about it. If they're willing to listen, they can take from that what they like. Its not as if she can't tell them her side of the story and while I speak of her 'bad points', I don't intend to make her look like an awful person... She has problems, and I'm sure (and hope) that these friends recognise that and take it into account in the matter and hope, as I do, that things work out for her, and that she grows and learns from the experiences she has had/is having/will have.