I'm having second thoughts but I'm not sure why... Part of me wants to get it over with, show her that I know about her lies and end it...
But part of me wants to give her another chance.
I think we've had at least one fight every day about this crap, because I want her to tell me the truth, tell me the things she's hiding from me.. And I don't want her to meet a woman who is in love with her and stay in a hotel with her....
She keeps saying she is not lying and why can't we just work on our relationship like we have talked about.. getting our friendship back which we lost along the way somewhere... Get close again...
Problem is I don't know if its even possible.. I don't want to keep living like we have been... I don't want the constant fear that she's going to leave me for someone else...
I don't want to be the only one trying to make up for past mistakes... Problem is, she won't admit she has made mistakes... She won't do anything to mend those mistakes...
She blames her mistakes on anxiety, depression, and me...
A problem with the internet?
Can't help it?
Nah, that doesn't fly with me.
Sure you can escape on the internet... Be a different person... I understand that.. But there is no need to have relationships and if what you are doing is hurting someone you truly care for...
You should stop.
And if you form feelings for another person, you don't have to act on them... If someone else forms feelings for you... You should not encourage them to the point where they want to be with you in RL.
If you want to act on them, for goodness sakes don't do it while you are already in a relationship! It hurts more people than you might realise, in the long run.
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