Wow... Sneaky bugger that am, I found myself some proof, that my partner is lying to me, about not having made any plans with her... friend... For their future if they end up together...
I'm not sure how I feel about that... Its nice to finally know for sure that she is telling lies...
Of course it hurts like hell, and it makes me furious... I am right now shaking with anger... And fear.. Because I know eventually I will have to do something about this. I know it is going to hurt like hell, but will feel so much better when its over... I think.
Part of me wants to wait.. try to get her to admit it, or try to catch more lies, so I can present them on a platter, proof and ultimatum... or maybe skip the ultimatum, and just leave.
I'm not sure if that part of me is just scared to get it over with.
And I know for sure, that part of me is scared of showing her how I got the proof... Because I know it will make her so goddamn furious... and that it will hurt her.. Probably contribute to her anxiety problems in the future.
Despite it all, I do love her, and while part of me wants to hate her, and hurt her, in revenge for hurting me...
Part of me will be in so much pain because I'll be hurting the woman I love.
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