We've not had any major fights the last 2 days... Little tiffs but nothing major... Because I havn't had a go at her or tried to get her to admit to lying...
I want to see what happens if I act like I'm like... Less stressed about it.. as if I trust her more... Its quite difficult lol, so many times I want to say something...
Seems she has to reassure her all the time, (the other woman) wants her to leave me, and she tells her she will, but can't yet... Because she needs me to drive her places and stuff...
After listening to that, I went outside to have a smoke and nearly threw up.
So unless she's lying to her, she really is just using me... I can't believe how easily she fakes affection... I mean when we are around family or friends, she puts her arm around me etc...
Thats so sick.. How could you fake affection like that? Omg...
She wants me to get a job with more hours, tells me its because we need more money, that maybe the reason we're having trouble is stress over money and because she is not used to me being around so much (my hours have reduced due to economy)
The morning before we had that conversation, she was reassuring (the other woman) that I am not around all the time... So I can only assume she was trying to get me to work more...So that I wasn't around so much... Tried to get me to apply for a job the other day that would have me out of the house in the early mornings and evenings, which is when they talk and have sex... Now I know why she got so pissy when I said no.
I was asleep when they were talking this morning, on the couch because she kicked me out of bed as usual at 4:30am (because she didn't want me to be waking up all the time because of her talking, apparently).. So she wasn't being overly careful.
But of course I'm not going to let a little thing like being asleep stop me from listening...
She was looking at jobs for herself today... But gave herself away by being overly concerned about the times she would be working and whether she could use chat programs etc while she was there.
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